As usual,
I set up and
kept the visualiser
for several lessons...

yesterday it was
a little different...
i had to find out
whose book Mr Han
borrowed from...

to my supprise,
the book belonged to
err...
one of them in her group...

that was the first time
i saw her smile up close...
>.<

i was very happy inside...
but i didnt smile...
i wonder why...
she was joking with
her frwens at that time...
i am wondering if
she was also trying to
joke with me too...

hais...
days fly past fast,
4 years have almost
passed in my
secondary school life...

2 years on my ex-crush
and 2 years for her...
maybe my feelings for her is
fading too...

im not sure...
i dont seem to hurt...
but i will still believe in her
till those memories fade...

XD...
I actually did it...

i sneaked into the AVA
thru the window where
i set up the stuff ^^

sad thing is...
i was revealed...
budden they still persist
to make me say loh...

luckily i nvr say...
liddat den wun kacau her
let it be bahs...

if 林老师 didnt persuade
her to accept...
i oso dunno where the cake will go...

thank you 老师...
i really appreciate ur help...
this would be one of my most
unforgettable moments...

happy bd to you...
stay happy, ok?

^^

love, Dreamy

She just changed her link...
i went in to peek..
well,
it wasnt right,
i noe...
but those pics...
just...
proved me wrong...

i need to know
when to move on...
there is not even
a slightest feeling for me...
i'm not needed...
i noe...
it's just the feeling
im having right now...

it's confusing...
yet disturbing...
it's painful...
yet i want to be happy...
those fake smiles...
i wanna end off
this year well...
the final year...

the final year...
the final year...
this is the last few times
i will get to see you...
i'm so depressed now...
i wanna look forward
to seeing you each day...
it aches me bad...

the sour feeling inside...
i just cant' let go...
i feel so bad...
just let me sob...
the tears wont come out...

i will miss you...
for sure...

3 more months
in this school...
wan say long cant say long..
wan say short cant say short...
i just got back to my mei...
i dun wan to lose her so quickly...

love is a great feeling at the start...
when it ends,
the pain is undescribable...
i must learn when to give up...

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pai seh...
recently no update...
i bought the xbox360...
at 1st july...
cool eh?
so i play and play...
den din update...
sorry lahhs
>_<

my fault no update kays?
XDXD
aiyah...
school close dat time...
will lose frwens...
lose mei...
lose loved one...
everything lost...
just for one 'O' level cert...

worth it or not??
u tell mi lorrs..

>_<
fell sick on
thursday & friday...
saw a doctor...
felt very pain...
for two whole days

i sick lehs...
including one sleepless night...
about about 3-5hrs of slp...
first day diarrhoea
and stomach pains,
2nd day fever...
felt like dying...
at that time,
when i had stomach pains...
killing myself,
to end the pain,
seemed like the best resort
during that ordeal...

but den,
i thought abt it...
i wondered what
would happen
if i left this world...
my friends...
my loved one...
i can't leave
this world yet...
i haven't helped
my friends enough yet...
thanks for lending me
ur strength...
i needed it...

i dun wan to leave this world...
i dun wan to leave my friends...
i dun wan to leave her...
school start liaos...
go bak to school
very fun lehhs..
my seat location...
very hard to take a glance of her...
i dun wan my class to notice...
i dun wan hurt her anymore...
i know how u feel now...
cuz i experienced the same feeling
on the net recently...
it muz be very frightening...

i'm sorry...
i shld have thought how
it would feel if i was in ur shoes...
it muz have taken u
a lot of courage to reject me...
i'm glad...
at least you know what's the best
for yourself...
humans are greedy
they want the best for themselves...
i dun blame you...
i will wish you all my best...

hahas...
long time no blog XD
sorries...
wahhs...
today study at
changi airport...
study what??
maths ^^

sians...
ehhs..
orisha's name change to
oriella...
LOLS
sounds like cinderella...
dun forget ur slippers ^^

ytd i go to
my chinese class
chalet...
nvr eat anything there...
hahas...
i went to be sporting ^^
budden...
someone hor
dunno how to cook...
then the other oso dunno
how to maintain the fire...
XD

funny,
the "chef" said
that she bbq
for the 2nd time...
1st time is the 1st day..
2nd time is the day i attended...

nxt time,
i wanna be in charge of
the fire...
^^
i believe that i
can do a better job ^^

so abt today...
yupps..
maths skills drop a lot...
chem up a lot but
maths drop...
need more practice...

gambatte!!
i will do it..
100%
i wun fail anyone...
including me...
hehes...
jia you all...
my trusted buddies
and friends...
do well for yourself
and do well for me
kays?

Haiz...
this world is tough...
thoughts differ from
people to people...

yea,
i'm into watching
certain animes nowadays...
those which has comedy
and elements of romance...
cuz these animes,
usually has many
ways of teaching
people to look at things from
a different perspective.

im quite suprised
at some of the way
the author manupilates
the response of the
anime characters...
i quite admire their effort...

yupps...
recently not much is going on...
just that...
i learnt many life lessons
from the animes
ive been watching,
and gained answers to
some of my problems...

though animes are
just dreams of
what many would like
in life...
it won't change things
around for the better...

i want to thing differently...
so much so that
i would not be an outcast...
due to my unsimilar thoughts...

i will be there...
i've thought enough...
im tired today just
thinking about it...
it won't stop me thou...
i will be there...
just waiting...
for the time to say
goodbye...

...
today,
my grandmum and my bro
headed to penang
in the early evening...

i feel so bored now...
although i have
all the time on
the computer...

i wonder now and then...
about her...
and about this
unknown girl...
i know that,
i have no feelings
for this unknown girl...
but this is the first time,
i've ever encountered
such a question...

well, gtg now...
bbies