Wahhs...
dis is crazy...
to think that
an unknown girl
on the net would ask
if i favoured her...

thx for da advice husayn.
well,
it didn't help much,
but i've found what
i needed to say ^^

wanna know what i said?
nahs dun say it in this blog..
even if there's no one here
to read...
hahas...

things do come around,
when you think long enough..
its proven.. ^^
well, husayn
you did ask me if i still liked
_______...
fact is, i am rather confused now...
i'm putting my results on
the first line than to think
of her now...
these things can wait...
i know...
because this is the real life...
it ain't like an anime,
which is perfectly made
to accustom to our lives...
in fact, animes are only there,
to remind us of what we need
to remember in life...
the morale boost is definitely
what i needed... ^^

it is rather late now..
i shan't type much more...
wait for my next update ^^

I'm bored...
that's for sure...
it isn't like me to do many things...
i dunno?
why do i always mimick the way
people do stuff?

today, orisha said i spoke differently...
yea, i recognise myself
speaking in a different tone,
just like the way
syahmi speaks...

Argh...
i can't stand it...
this shapeshifter has gotta
find his own soul...

i also noticed one thing...
during class,
i somehow managed to mimick
william...
well, at least i was favoured...
but *sigh*

anyway,
i made a lot of trouble for
others today...
hahas...
this devil has got a way...
in the library,
i went to a computer,
entered the menu's options
and renamed many files...
the librarian should be mad
if they found out... ^^

also, i hacked into yanfen's blog
by finding out the pass to the blog...
din noe she had a very bad temper
and used vulgarities too...
well, who knows??
hahas...
well, i can't tell anyone that
i hacked into the account right?
I would be avoided then lolx...
wow... that is sure a lot to write
about for these few days huh?

hais...
i'm still lost...
i dunno wad to do...
just that i noe that i have
a mission in mind now:
" get gd grades for 'O's "
i will work for it...
i noe that i've been lazing
these few months,
since the start of june at sec 3.
but as long as i'm able to
accomplish my goal,
i would be much happier
right?

my goal says yes
but the heart of going
thru this process says
no.
its because my head says
tht no relationships can be
maintained without money...
that's why i must get a gd job...
but my heart says,
im really not going to
enjoy this now or the future,
if i keep on striving ahead...

well, that's all for today.
it wasn't a nice wrap-up,
but at least the points are there right?
its cool to have a blog...
but to noe who to
restrict the blog to...

Today's my Chinese 'O' Levels Paper...
Was quite focused on the paper...
Like i promised myself,
to not get distracted
by you in the examination hall...

A sad thing...
I did not bring my glasses
and thought the paper
was two hours long...
Thus, my time management was shattered...

Pity that...
And because of that, I lost 8 marks
which i could easily obtain from the passage...
But that wasn't entirely the main problem...
I could not answer some questions,
which totalled up to about 11 marks loss
from not being able to express my thoughts in chinese
as i know what to write,
but i can't remember the characters to be used for writing...

As calculated, a 6 mark reduction from my paper 2,
would mean a different grade...
As for my Paper 1, i need to score as least 45.5marks
In order to get B3...

How can I at this rate?? XD

Well, at least I still have you in my heart...
That's all I need to take me to the sky...
Trust me, we will make it together...
=)

It is more simple nowadays...
I can control myself of when to love
and when to focus on work...
It is onli when you are able to
divide your time
would you onli be able to
feel more organised
and more free to do things
as you wish
in the time you divide for...

Thus
I've gotta use my time now
on my studies
thats where both of us aim.
I must push you aside for now.
Its not that i forgotten about you
Its not that im willin to move ahead now
but i must work extra hard
in order to get what i want...

I am not weak anymore.
I know what im aiming for.
Till the day im able to
fully support a relationship
i wont get involved...
but love still remains
deep within my soul...